31 MAY 2016

Dear Diary,

Have you ever dream of having a long holidays? I bet everyone is having such dream. Believe it or not, I was on a vacation for one year. Yes, I've said it. After finishing high school, everyone were getting excited to enter colleges or universities of their own choices including me. I was very confident that I will be accepted for the requested course, so I take for granted for not paying any attention regarding the requirements . On the day the results were announced, I was very devastated because my application was rejected. My dream of becoming an Architect has shattered...

Coincidentally, UiTM Samarahan Rector was a friend of my mother. She seek help from him to enter my name on the list. However, he is unable to do so because my SPM result is unsatisfactory upon the course and the dateline to attend the interview for the course has ended. Hence, he offered me a Business Study course. I don't have any interest to take the course he offered so I declined.

I tried to apply at other universities either government or private sector. I don't have any feedback from them except for the private (you know the reason why). My mother said, it is very expensive if I choose to further my study at private. What to do... I have to let go of my dream of becoming a student at LimKokWing University.As days went by, I still don't get any feedback from the other university.

I spend most of my time at home and procrastinating. I did get a part-time job but not for long since I have transportation problems. I did go out with my boyfriend on the weekends and sometimes my mother bring me to join the associations activities, so that I don't stuck at home. Somehow I still feel useless and boring since all of my friends are studying or even working. As for me, I literally doing nothing in my life. Many people look down on me and asking me when am I going to further my study.

Despite all that, I'm not giving up just yet. I applied UPU for the second time. Alhamdulillah my application were accepted. However, it is not the course that I wanted. I was expecting to get accepted in Library Management and not Wood Technologies. I did choose the Wood Technologies as one of my choices but, it was my tenth choice. Plus the campus was stated in UiTM Campus Jengka Pahang. I feel a bit down at first but my mother encourage me to take it.

I went for the registration on 23rd May 2016. We were having 'Minggu Destini Siswa' (MDS) for one week. It was one of the best experience I've ever had. I met new friends from different districts. My room-mates were very nice and friendly. We were brief about the course and it is not as bad as it seems. I've began to gain interest towards the course as they explained what was it all about. They motivate me to do better in this course and I want to get the 'Anugerah Naib Canselor' (ANC). To get the ANC, I need to score dean for every semester. I will strive to achieve it. Wish me luck!

P/S: I miss Miri, Sarawak.. Huhu T^T

2 MAY 2016

Dear Diary,

Today I would like to share with you guys about makeup. Almost every girls wear makeup. Well... obviously :P But some of them prefer natural beauty. As for me, I'm fond of using liptint as my lips always looking pale. Besides, liptint gives me a natural finish to my lips. Whenever I go out I will always apply liptint otherwise I would feel incomplete without it. My friends often told me that my lips look pale and dry. They asked me to drink water instead. I said I'm fine and I drink water all the time. I don't know why my lips is always like that. It does make my face looks haggard and weary. People thought I may be sick or something but I am perfectly fine and that's the reason why I wear liptint till this day.

I personally love using liptint because the product is very light unlike lipstick. It is a bit sticky but the color is more to natural and not very pigmented. It is also suitable for daily use.

Anyway, I wasn't really interested in makeup before and yet I only use liptint to make my face appear brighter. Somehow, makeup manage to tackle my heart xP so I started buying the makeup product this year (one by one). Few of them I bought online and the rest I bought them at little boxes store, Watson and even Daiso Japan. I bought the low end makeup since I don't have enough money to buy the makeup products. In the meantime, I spent most of my money on foods and movies. So yeah... I will try my best to save my money on buying the quality cosmetic products.

I wanted to show you my makeup collections but I forgot that some of the pictures that I've taken was in my boyfriend handphone. I'm very lazy to take pictures right now. Maybe on the next entry I'll show them.

I'm still new in this makeup thing so if you guys have suggestions or opinions, feel free to leave a comment ^_^ I really appreciate it!

Thank you for dropping by :*
That's all for today. Assalamualaikum and adios amigos :)

Throwback photo <3

10 MARCH 2016

Dear Diary...

Last week, there was something wrong with my iphone 6. It’s says that the storage is already full and asked me to delete some apps. I delete 93% of my apps but worst come to worst. From 150 MB went to 0 bytes. My friend suggested me to format it but I don't want to do it all by myself. It’s not that I don’t know how, it’s because of the sentimental value. I told my boyfriend about it and we both agreed to swap iphone for temporarily. By the way, he uses iphone 5.

Shortly after that, he managed to solve the problem. He himself doesn't know how he resolved the issues. He backup the iphone using Itunes then he just closed the unnecessary things. The storage suddenly has 6.8 GB free space. So he didn’t format it. We agreed that since he could fix this problem I let him use my iphone for about two weeks.

It has been 6 days now. I bought a new cable and that one small thing (which can be connected to android usb cable to use with iphone. I don't know the name of the device) as my old ones has broken. He accompanied me to buy those things. As soon as I'm home, I tested out the small thing. Guess what, it does not functioning. I assumed that the small thing has broken. I just need to go to the store and exchange to a new one.

That night, his iphone was low on battery so I wanted charge it. The funny thing was it doesn't work. This is impossible as we did test the cable and its work perfectly with iphone 6. Yes, we didn't test it with iphone 5 and you know why. I thought maybe the iphone adapter has some issue on it but I was wrong. Again it works just fine with android usb cable.

Due to that, the charging pin must be broken or something. I don't know what I did but it is broken because of my carelessness. I feel really guilty as it's my responsible to take care of his iphone. :( He is not in the mood when I told him about this. Luckily, my mom gave me RM100 for me to send off the iphone to the shop for repair.

Despite, I am mentally tired worrying about this stupid problem of mine.

Assalamualaikum. Have a nice day.

28 OCTOBER 2015

Dear Diary,

I want to make a new entry. Obviously... hehe :P Today I would like to talk about a person whom I admire. The most powerful features she has are her voice.

"She has a very distinct voice as whenever u hears her songs you know it's her which is awesome!" 

I started to adore her since she released her first single 'All about that bass'. I found that her music is catchy and fun. It's totally my style! I'm not only falling for her unique voice but also her appearance. She is so beautiful! How I wish one day I could meet her real life.

<3 <3 <3

She had released her new single 'Better when I'm dancing' on Oct 16 2015. Once I hear it, I play it on repeat. Every time I hear the song, I'll start to dance to myself xD

Can you guess who she is?

Yup, it’s Meghan Trainor!
How I wish I have a strong voice just like hers. I’m crying an ocean T^T

Anyway, do support her and don’t forget to listen to her new single! You won’t regret it, I promise.

That’s all for today peeps. I’ll type again soon, if I’m not feeling lazy...

Bubye! Assalamualaikum!

3 AUGUST 2015

Dear Diary,

I've got to admit that I'm a sensitive type of person. I get upset over little things. I can't tolerate with jokes really well at times. I hate myself for having such attitudes. It just... I'm a little bit disappointed with him. People said, at the beginning of the relationship everything was perfect and lovely. In the long run we will start to feel bored with each other and that's where the breaking up occurs. At the end of the day, ‘we’ become only memories. That’s what people often say about relationship.

Don't get me wrong. It's not that we already breaking up or something. There are things that he did, made me crestfallen. He promised me to do the special popo which he will be singing Baby by Justin Bieber but, then he didn't do it up till now. Back then, he usually does it right after I asked him to. Other than that, he told me he wanted to make my picture as the wallpaper for the lock screen. He said he doesn't want to hide anything about us. Plus it will be his first for doing so. I was touched and very pleased. During our date, we went karaoke. He put his iphone on the table. I saw his lock screen wallpaper and guess what? It's not my picture. It was a picture of Batman logo. I don't want to tell him that I was disappointed when he did that. It shows that I was being childish if I ask him to change it. But still...

Apart from that, he promised he wanted to call me. Yet he always broke his promises. He fell asleep right after he texted me. I understand that he was tired. I don't mind if he wanted to sleep early. The least he could do is wishing me goodnight. But he didn't. That's what make me upset. I hate it when he have to say sorry for what he did but repeat the same mistake all over again. I forgive him. I always forgive him. At some point, his sorry seems to be nothing. His sorry seems to diminishing its value. I don't want to be selfish as I have to understand his conditions. He's having school the next day. Well, I might be doing the same thing if I was in his shoes. So, I just let it go... 

If you are reading this, it's not that I don't want to speak up to you about this matter, I want to let you find out by yourself, and at least you have the efforts to read my blog since you're insisted to read it.

That's all for today peeps. Good Mornight everyone.
Assalamualaikum.

It's raining now~

31 JULY 2015

Dear Diary,

I can't remember when the last time I’ve opened my Deviant Art account was. Back then, it's used to be one of my obsessions apart from blogging. It's not that I always posting arts, but simply browsing through amazing arts. I really admire how the artists expressed themselves through arts. This is one of the motivations for me to improve my arts skill as I want to just as great as the other artists.

Anyway, tomorrow will be our first proper date even though it has been 4 months since we started dating. Shocking huh? Well, my mom is the reason why. She doesn’t like the idea of me and a boy alone going out together. If I’m insisting, then we must be in a group of people. It’s not that she doesn’t trust me; it depending on whom I’m hangout with. Friends can be a great influence. However, it is my responsibilities to take care of myself not to get caught up in negative influence.

I'm just so excited for tomorrow! Hehe *Grinning* :D I wonder what he is up to? I’ve forced him to do a special kiss video for me and he was supposed to sing Baby by Justin Bibber. He was very reluctant to do so. Finally, he relented. But then, he was busy and hasn’t got time to do it for me. Yesterday, I asked him again about it. He said, don’t worries he will do it for sure so just be patient. The moment he said that, I started to imagine things. I wonder what his plan is for tomorrow as I know he is full of surprises. Am I hoping too much? Haha

Oh ya, I was eligible to study Diploma in Architectural Technology at Limkokwing University of Creative Technology. Too bad I have to turn down the offer and go for UIA instead. Because, it is better for me to take foundation and go straight for Degree when come to think of it. Plus, the intake for Limkokwing University is 3rd August and I haven’t bought the necessities for the university. The intake for UIA is January 2016. So there’s plenty of time for me to get ready. I hope I manage to get a spot to study Architecture in UIA. Aamiin... Cross my fingers.

That’s all folks. Salam Jumaat everyone!

Assalamualaikum :)

9 JULY 2015

Dear Diary,

Heya it's me again. I feel bored... Like totally bored... All of my friends have continued their studies while I'm stuck here in front of my laptop. But hey, the good news is my mom seems to be giving me a green light for me to study in LimKokWIng University xD Well, I don't want put my hopes high but I prayed so that my mom won't change her mind about this matter :D Aamiin...

Last night... Wait, I mean this morning... I knew something I'm not supposed to know... Which is kind of disappointing...? But then again, people make lots of stupid mistakes. Therefore everybody deserves a second chance for those who willing to change for the better. Yeah, I have flaws too. Nobody's perfect. One told me, your imperfections make you perfect.

It was really hard for me to confess to him and so does him. Alhamdulillah he's willing to accept me as I am and I'm also willing to accept him as he is. I've read something on twitter saying, "If you want to be in someone's future, don't bother about their past because they don't live there anymore". People may judge, but they don't have the right to punish them for what they've did as people have the right to change and to correct their mistakes.

To be really honest, I almost give up on him once he told me about his 'painful' past. Almost... Well, we don't give on the person we love right? He was really stupid back then. Really, really, really really, really, really stupid, Alhamdullilah he realized his mistakes and regret it every day. He will change to be a better man. I am very sure about it. Otherwise... I don't know what I will do to him... 

hmm... I love him soooo damn much. I'm afraid to lose him. He's the best thing that ever happened in my life. I hope we can stay forever. Insya-Allah till Jannah... Aamiin... Even if he's not 100% mine (not my husband yet xD). I know certain people hate it when non-married couple use 'till jannah' as a caption. I feel you. I used to feel the same way too haha :P Anyway, I pray that he is the guy that was written for me in luh mahfuz. aamiinn.... :)

Okay peeps!

Assalamualaikum!

Happy fasting! :D

and yes... I'm making the right decision :)